Wednesday, December 30, 2009

I have come to the conclusion that what I am doing with my life(job) is not fulfilling. Don't get me wrong, I love my job and what I do but I don't get that fulfillment from it. I so want to do something to help people, especially Children battling that aweful disease we call Cancer!! All of this is stemming from a little boy I have been following on named Dax. He was 2 1/2 years old and passed away this morning. He was only a couple of months older than Avari. I couldn't imagine life without her or what Dax's parents must be going through. It's not fair, not fair that he never had a chance at life. Not fair that Cancer has taken so many children away from their parents and away from chance at life. Dax was not the only one I have been following. I think it is a total of 7 or 8 journals that I follow, 4 of which their child has passed on. As I read these journals daily, each one talks of another child that is suffering as their child is and asking for prayer requests. I never realized how many Children out there suffer with this daily. And what have I done to help? Make a small donation? But how does that compare to what they have to endure everyday? So I ask myself what can I do to help? I would love to be able to work in a place the makes a difference such as St. Jude and be a part of something real. Sitting at this desk has no meaning. I am not helping anyone. I am not making a difference. So now a new journey will begin for me. I'm not quite sure how yet or what I will pursue but I know in my heart that this is what I want to do.

Dax's mom posted a journal 2 hours before he passed and a part of it really hit home with me about what the conversation was with the doctor:

"Our doctor sat with us today and told us a short story that was right on the money. He said he was eating lunch and looked down at a magazine with Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie on it. The headline read will a baby save their marriage. He sat in silence for a minute and said, "who cares." As we sit here and look at our son struggling to survive it seems so silly. Imagine if our society put the money into childhood cancer research rather than celebrities."

That statement right there is soooo true! If only we could make the rest of the world see this, maybe just maybe, something more would be done to help all Cancer patients.

Now I'll admit that I have gotten wrapped up in gossip magazines, etc. But from this point forward, I will not buy another gossip magazine, or anything that will put more money in these selfish peoples pockets. Why not write a true story about the struggles of cancer and all that have to go through it. Instead of a gossip magazine how about a real life magazine? Maybe that's what I will do, start an online magazine about real people in their real lives, struggling daily with cancer or any other problems they may be facing.

All I can ask now is to keep all of these kids in your prayers.........

*RIP Angel Dax*

Sunday, October 4, 2009

A new beginning...

I have finally decided that it is time to get into shape and get healthy. I have been saying this for years but now it's "no excuses". I always tell myself that I will start tomorrow but it has been two years since Avari was born and I have yet to lose the baby weight. Tomorrow will officially begin my 8 week commit to fit journey. I have purchased the product and joined the program and am ready to make my commitment to being healthy. I am sooo excited about it and just hope that I feel better and see some results.

On another note, I finally got to go to Canton for the first time on Friday. I had an awesome time with Amie, Nancy, Julie and Millie. Thanks Millie for letting us stay with you and look forward to seeing "our room" finished upon our next return. : ) I can't wait until our next trip. I love it and could have spent my entire life's savings there.....My next trip won't be until we purchase our next home. No need to buy stuff I can't use anytime soon!!!

Off to bed now!!!

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

In search

I am currently in the process of planning Avari's 2nd birthday. We have decided to do a Farm theme since she loves animals. All in all it is coming together quite nicely but I am having the darndest time finding poster sized farm animals to hang on a barnwood backgroud. I guess no one makes cutouts that big....anywho....if I have to make them myself, I will but it would be much easier to just buy them. I am really excited about the party though and I think it is going to be super cute. I've come up with a few ideas for activities for kids but nothing is set in stone yet. Save the date: December 12, 2009!!! My baby will be 2 on December 15! Oh how time flys! Ok....back to work!